I’m having one of those days I have once or twice a month. Those days you have when you wake up and you can’t take your life anymore. Where you spent yesterday doing all of the laundry only to wake up today with the laundry basket full again. How does this happen? Do my kids know that I get cranky when the clothes overflow so they hide stuff until it’s empty?
One of the days when you washed 5 pair of your 5 year old’s underwear only to open the drawer this morning to one pair. You had bought this 5 year old Avenger underwear which he declared unfit so he put all of his underwear with his sister’s pj’s. Even the favored Star Wars underwear. It took me a full five minutes to get this information. And five minutes is a huge chunk of time when getting 3 kids to school.
One of the days when Starburst wrappers on the bed spread spark a continuous stream of mumbled words focused on being underappreciated to come from my mouth.
I always apologize once I realize they’re children and my room is messier than theirs (which is also not my fault) and then I start to blame myself for buying my daughter a Sunday coat so that she has two coats to hang up or the fact I bought my son underwear without consulting him on the style.
I apologize once I hear words I’ve spoken coming out of their mouths or them blaming each other in a similar tone to mine and then I drop them off at school and see my 5 year old running into his class and it tugs at my heart and I think, does it really, really matter? And I think of all those talks I’ve heard about enjoying my children’s youth and how I’ll look back on these times and not think about the laundry.
And then I think: that’s a huge load of crap.
Right now, I cannot get ahead of anything I’m responsible for: laundry, dinner, homework, piano playing, etc. Because every day I get up, it starts all over again. Occasionally we have crackers and cheese for dinner and occasionally I completely drop the ball on homework, but generally it gets done and it has to get done every day. And there really isn’t any headway to be gained.
And if this wouldn’t cause you a little frustration, you’re weird.